Do you remember your inner sparkle?
Little children still have this * inner sparkle *.
One day in the train, there was a little baby boy with his dad sitting in front of me. And this little boy was incredible. He was smiling all over, he was pure bliss. You know, it was a grey day and probably for most of the people it was their first working day after the Christmas holidays. Everybody I saw in this train was looking distressed and miserable and kind of depressed. Except this little boy, and his dad who was smiling about his boy.
While people are growing up, most of them somehow loose that sparkle and that all over smiling face that they once had when they were little babies or little kids. Some could keep that sparkle a little bit longer, some already lost it as little kids or even as little babies. Why did that happen? In my own experience, it’s because of traumatic experiences, and that the kid experienced something, that made him or her think that somehow something wouldn’t be right and okay with him or her. And that it needed to change in order to be loved or at least in order to be accepted. And so it did change into a version of himself or herself that was somehow cropped. You try to be like everybody else. You think: what can I do that Mummy and Daddy love me more? And you do just that. And then you go through your life with this thinking: what can I do to be more accepted, to be more loved? And you stop to BE yourself more and more. You loose yourself.
And now the thematic about the inner child comes in. You still have this child that you once were, living inside of yourself. And if you are conscious about it or not: that inner child does influence you a lot. If you haven’t healed your childhood trauma, then you act out of trauma and not out of pure divine love. But once you were pure divine live. You just somehow forgot about it. But as a little baby, you remembered that and that’s why you were sparkling all over.